Wednesday, March 24, 2010

American Idol made me laugh!

I do not watch American Idol but I happened to be watching it tonight (just to see if a fellow high school girl would make it into the top ten (she did)). I must ask: Is this the kind of entertainment America likes these days? I am not speaking of the contestants. I have not heard any of the contestants and therefore, am not able to give my opinion. Rather I refer to a HUGE celebrity with the name Miley Cyrus.

Her performance started out rocky but, hey, most live performances do. But it did not seem to get better. Then I thought she had tripped…but it turns out it was her getting into the music (or choreography?). Hubby said: “I don’t think I like this song.” I said: “I love the song. I think it would be a great song if someone else sang it. She’s ruining it.”

I must admit I have never enjoyed Miley’s voice and I finally figured out why. To me it always sounds like her nose is congested. Is it just me that feels this way? Why is she so popular? Oh, right, because of Hannah Montana? Yes, the pre-teen television show was cute. I enjoyed it…but…this “sexy, grown up” Miley singing “real” songs just is not working.

Ok, I have a beef against celebrities. I just get irritated how obsessed we, the people, consume our lives with what Hollywood celebrities are doing. Who cares?!? Celebrities are so consumed with their image and their status. How many times do they need to celebrate themselves in one year? SAG, Grammys, Globes, Emmy’s, etc, etc, etc. Once in a while a celebrity comes along that truly is talented (and has their head on their shoulders), and can make a difference in a role they play, in the music they perform. (I can’t really see a sport’s star making a difference…though I am sure I can be proven wrong. Perhaps someone physically handicapped becoming a sport’s icon….just an example)

My point? I don’t know. I just don’t like celebrities and I don’t like how obsessed everyone is about them. They do not portray real life. Make your life your own—not Hollywoodized.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

NOT a Chore!

Dishes, check. Laundry, check. Bathroom, check. Scripture Study, check?!



Ok, I put Scripture study on my TO DO list. So what? At least I read, right? I never want the mentality that reading my scriptures is a chore. I put scripture study on my list because sometimes I get distracted by other things and when I see it there on my list it is a reminder for me to make time for my scripture study!

With that being said: I usually read my scriptures while Ms. G is napping. I put a movie on for Mr. L (wipe that shocked look off your face...yes I let him watch movies) and then I go into my room and take anywhere from a half hour to hour reading/pondering etc. However, yesterday before I was getting ready to do such a thing the doorbell was frantically ringing (as frantic as a doorbell can be). I opened the door and the neighbor man asked me if this little boy, with only a cowboy hat, sunglasses,shoes, and a shirt, was mine. I looked at that dirty little boy bouncing all over the place and said "No". Instead of shutting the door (as majority of the neighbors did) I helped the neighbor man find the little boy's home.

I also gave him some of M. L's undies and shorts... The police, unfortunately, had to be called because the boy could not even say his name and he kept saying my house was his house. The father had fallen asleep. My adventure for the day was over and I had completely forgotten to read my scriptures! However, I still made time in the evening.

One final note: Today Mr. L and Ms. G are over at Teresa's house so I can get a break. (THANK YOU TERESA...YOU ARE A MIRACLE WORKER) I read my scriptures on the couch...in total silence (unless you count the rain falling)...not even the faintest sound of a movie or child....it was heavenly.

Moral of my blog: 1. Don't let scriptures become a chore. 2. Even if/when crazy things happen...you still have time to read them. AND 3. When your kids are away...enjoy the day the right way!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Yes, we still live in Southern Georgia!

Though you probably can't tell from these photos.






The last time it snowed in Georgia was ten years ago. We loved playing in the snow. Born and raised up north...I do not really care for snow. But not having something makes you appreciate it when it comes! (Plus it was all melted by the end of the day.) It was exciting but I still have a northern mind set: Sure, the first snowfall is fun...but the eighth snowstorm gets a little old!
Ms. I had been wishing for snow for months and I told her that it was highly unlikely it would snow (and even if it did....it would not accumulate). Here is a moment where Ms. I could smugly look at me and say: "See mom, I KNEW it would snow!"

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Can anybody find meeeeee somebody to..........

I need to be strong because my husband needs my support. I have tried to be that strength and support he needs but I am just not sure I can accomplish this anymore.
My head hurts from crying so hard and even now it seems almost impossible to stop my tears from shedding. I take a deep breath and type onward…my heart hurts so bad because I am emotionally stressed and physically drained by the end of every day.

The scriptures tell us: “To mourn with those that mourn, and comfort those that stand in need of comfort.” I need those things and I am just not finding it. I feel selfish because I want support but also guilty because I feel like there are others who need it more than I. I know that the Lord has helped me carry this burden; if He had not been there I know I would have given up a long time ago.

Today, I wanted to pack my bag and leave. This is not the first time. Many times I have wanted to leave the stress of being a mother behind me. I quickly change my mind and feel guilty about the thought. However, what made today different was I still want to leave. I do NOT have feelings of guilt. I feel eerily calm about leaving—almost like I would be doing my children a favor.

Mothering, I must admit, does not come easily to me. I envy the woman who, with seeming ease, balances motherhood, wifedom, and voluntary commitments.

I know my husband will read this and feel guilty but I do not want him to be so… making him feel guilty about going to school to get a good job so he can support us financially is NOT what I mean by this. And some people say: “Suck it up, hon. I can do it, you can too!) I am not you, things that are easy for you may be hard for me or vice versa…OR “you only have a year and a half left”…OR “I am sorry you are feeling that way…it’ll get better.” I have heard these things I KNOW these things...it does not make it easier for me.

The kid’s teeth are brushed and they are in bed. The chaos is gone and yet I still feel the desire to go forever. I was secretly hoping that my sister-in-law would get a job here so that I would have more familial support. She did not get the job and so my heart still yearns for someone. Can anybody find me, somebody to comfort me?

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Snow!

It snowed in Georgia. I would post pictures but they are still on the camera! Frosdaddy is in charge of that! :-D The kids LOVED it. I can't wait to show you all the fun stuff they did!